"OH Lord we come before you in behalf of our sinful friend .....please forgive this gluttonous sinner and if it be your will soothe the belly of this undeserving one ......AAAAaaaahhhhhmen "
troubled mind
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I need you to pray for me, I absolutely want to die right now. I feel so horrible right now.
by miseryloveselders ini just massacred and entire bag of oreo cookies and quarter gallon of milk.
my stomach is killing me.
ohh, i just want to croak right now.
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Personal thoughts as a new parent
by Highlander ini'm in the living room, watching my wife interact with our baby girl.
the pure joy and innocence emanating from my beautiful baby is beyond anything i could have every imagined.
i see the smile on my wife's face.
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troubled mind
Your daughter is lucky to have you on her side . Having children of my own and reliving the JW struggle through their eyes was a painful thing to go through, it wasn't until our youngest was almost out of High School that I had my true awakening .
Even when they were small I tried to make being a JW a better experience for them than I had . I never drilled into them the fear of Armaggedeon like my Mom had done with me and my siblings .
When I did research on the JW position about blood transfusions , I had my eyes opened to just how wrong this doctrine was and how steeped in human opinion it all was based upon . That caused me to become extremely angry at myself for being so terribly gulliable ..All my life I had gone along with and put complete trust in a manmade religious organization. I really believed that giving blood to a dying child would displease God . So much so that when our five yr old son had emergency surgery I staunchly told the Doctor if it came down to giving blood to my child or allowing him to die w/o it we would go the no blood route ......It SICKENS me now to look back and think I could have made such a heartless statement . Thankfully our son's operation was successful and we did not need to face that issue . However looking back and considering the what if's makes me shudder ! I remember even then how frightened I was because deep down it just did not seem right ,but the twisted Witness thinking makes you truly believe what good is bad and what bad is good .....
I now work around the public school system and I see just how much our young ones missed out on . The Witnesses will only point out the negative aspects like ,"OH yeah they missed out on drugs, sex, and unwanted pregnancies "......but they don't see the everyday little joys kids have at school when they fully participate . The beaming faces on the day of their Christmas music recital for parents and grandparents .( As a witness I remeber just wanting to disappear into the woodwork on those days because I would not be allowed to attend) The excitment on the day they are bringing home their "Mother's Day " projects .( I remember feeling torn because I also planted the marigold to bring home to Mom ,but I knew it was wrong to do Mothers Day ) The sense of accomplishment and commadarie they feel with their soccer teamates .( I loved basketball and wanted so much to be part of a team ,but it was not allowed. ) The giddiness of giving a special girl a Valentine in class . ( JW kids get to feel dirty and guilty for the small crushes they have in grade school ) Then in High School just getting to try out different clothing styles ,hair , music ,ect seeking out individuality and independence ....( The witness teen is poured into a predetermined mold and constantly reminded 'independant thinking is wrong ) Proud Seniors applying to Colleges and excited about the new oppurtunities ahead ....( many witness youths have already been pulled from school to finish High School in a home school program so they can graduate early and start pioneering while working a pt job )
Give your baby a hug and know in your heart you WILL be giving her a better life >
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The pieces finally come together
by man in black inthis afternoon i got a letter stating that i was accepted to accompany a ww 2 veteran on a flight to washington dc to visit the ww2 memorial in september.. www.honorflight.org.
i also was called to check up on the health of several horses that some friends of my wife adopted, they are very underweight belgians, and these.
new owners want to make sure that they are taken care of.
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Thank you for sharing your experiences, it gives me hope that one day I will find MY own niche in life that makes a difference .
For so long I was taught it was wrong to have dreams and passion for anything other than the Witness work and lifestyle. I really don't know what I have a passion for . The past couple of years I have just focused so much energy on fading with my immediate family intact that I really have not concentrated on much of anything else . I am proud and grateful to have an open, loving, accepting relationship with my own kids .
I do believe it is the right time now though to begin searching for something meaningful to be active for . What that is just isn't clear yet ...
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More Society cutbacks - Society says "screw you" to the publishers yet again
by sir82 inat our service meeting it was announced that there is a change in the manner in which magazines are now to be delivered to the congregations.. up until now, magazines were sent to each kingdom hall via ups.
in years past magazines were sent to each congregation po's home address via ups.. going forward, magazines will be sent only as far as the assembly hall.
it is the responsibility of each kingdom hall to send brother(s) twice a month to drive out there, pick up the magazines, and return.. this of course saves a little bit of money for the society - shipping larger packages to fewer addresses will cost less.. however, what about the expense to the local congregations?.
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Our Assembly Hall was in Romeoville ,IL (near Chicago) and our hall always went there to pick up literature .That was a 2 &1/2 hr drive each way ! I am pretty sure they would take turns with other halls to do pick ups .
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It is still Sunday evening here where I live and i am watching Goonies on TV .
My son just called and asked me to feed his corn snake for him .....yuck .....I plan on getting my husband to do that little chore ....Son moved out ,but left his pet here .....
We spent the afternoon cleaning up from storm damage we had Friday night . A lot of limbs down . Minor damage to the gutters and furnace vent on the roof . Towns north of us got 10 inches of rain ,and in Iowa a dam was compromised from swollen river causing the dam to burst ....the flooding downstream destroyed five homes and threatens more .
Because of the storms there is power outages here since Friday . My brother in laws family has stopped over to take showers and cool off because of this .
Hope your AC gets working again real soon . We have had 90 degree F weather here with 77% humidity it is like being in a sauna !
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Bought a few books at the library
by mrsjones5 inand two of the books are wt pubs, the secret of family happiness for .50 cents and what does the bible really teach for .25 cents.
my daughter was with me and asked why did i buy the jw books and i replied to prevent anyone else from buying them.
she then asked what was i going to do with the books and i said i would keep them for a little while and then dispose of them.
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Aren't you afraid of bringing Demons into your house with those things ??
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He is a keeper !
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We are planning a trip to Upper Peninsula of Michigan ,any tips ?
by troubled mind inwe plan on going next month .
first time to that area ,any suggestions on must see/do in that area ..?
i just made reservations for the first two nights in a resort motel near porcupine mountains state park..
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How did I just know someone would suggest a KH ???? Don't think so Tim ...
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We are planning a trip to Upper Peninsula of Michigan ,any tips ?
by troubled mind inwe plan on going next month .
first time to that area ,any suggestions on must see/do in that area ..?
i just made reservations for the first two nights in a resort motel near porcupine mountains state park..
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We plan on going next month . First time to that area ,any suggestions on must see/do in that area ..? I just made reservations for the first two nights in a resort motel near Porcupine Mountains State park.
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I would like to hear your experiences with being SHUNNED
by jwfacts ini am going to put together a page of short experiences of how shunning has affected exjws.
you do not have to be disfellowshipped, even if you were shunned after being marked or after fading.
all comments are welcome, such as who shunned you, how long since family have spoken to you, what your situation is, why you are being shunned and how it has made you feel.
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I faded four years ago . One of my jobs is that I work in a Gift store/coffee shop in our small town . I saw a former aquantience that is a JW walk into the store entrance with her three small girls .She looked around quickly saw that I was behind the counter immediately whisper to her children, and turn around and walk back out .
At the grocery store I have had Elders wives avoid eye contact and hurridly turn down a different aisle when they see me . I am usually a happy person and I smile and wave to people in general . On the street where I live there are now six Witness families within a three block area from me . Two of those families are related by marriage to my husband . However when I drive past any of these people and wave ,eyes are averted and heads hung low .......
My niece by marriage and her husband have cut contact with me and my daughter in law (who is not baptised but was a publisher ), because we no longer attend meetings .......if only we would start attending again then we could enjoy her association once again ...???( emotional blackmail ) My in laws are Witnesses and see us once a year when they are in the area visiting . They schedule their visits so that we are not together with other witness family members at the same time .How is that for family love ..?
I had another witness start shunning me at another job I have ,but things changed this year once other co-workers observed her un-christian behavior . Workers had noticed her cold shoulder to me ,and I openly told them why she was treating me this way, several made comments about how a real christian would not treat others like that . All of the sudden this year she started talking to me again ,but only in group situations (so she would look good again in others eyes )
This spring when we had an Elders visit and he was encouraging us back into the warm association of brothers ......I laughed, and said why would I want to go back to people that treat me this way ? Later in the conversation when he suggested I could write a DA letter I said WHY would it matter I have already been judged by those in the hall ,they already treat me as if I am DF'd so what's the point .
No matter how high I hold my head ,NO matter how wide my smile is on the outside ,the knife wounds to my heart are always still there on the inside ......
To be rejected by those you once called friend is something I don't think you ever can get use to .